lauantai 21. marraskuuta 2015

What's up?

Last night we played a great show with the insanely good Fuck-Ushima, one of the best bands around right now. This gig showed me again the value of warming up. Few minutes plain screaming, until you're on the verge of collapsing, and you're good to go.. It works, every time you have the time and space to do that. After that, everything will go smooth and easy. After the show I felt pure, empty,  like my body and psyche would have been destroyed and rebuilt. It made me feel good. Everyone should have an outlet like this. To have some sort of fire to burn inside you, some sort fire that you can feed with all the bullshit you'll have to crawl through in your everyday life.

It felt good, but today has been even better. The feeling you get, when you're completely empty, every single muscle in your body aching but all the tensions gone. You just meditate through your existence for a while. Until you start building up another pile of shit inside your mind and soul, to have something more to burn the next time you get to play. For us it's a month away now. The point of this band has been to play at least 12 shows a year, to maintain my sanity, and we have pretty much always exceeded that, which has made me a really happy and fairly functioning human being. I've managed to work and study without exploding all over some stupid people I'll have to endure in my day to day interactions. You just swallow it and decide the moment to let it out yourself. You're in control. And that's the way it should be.

What's next? We've made some plans for some future splits. At least one with Fuck-Ushima, maybe another one with Farsas, and one more, that's still a bit uncertain. We'd need to get to the rehearsal space and make the songs, but it's a good thing there's three of us making songs, we have always something up our sleeves anyhow. So there'll be three different splits next year. If we have shitloads of time in our hands, maybe another album too, but let's not rush ahead of things. Let's just enjoy this moment, right now. This lazy, muscle aching, thoughtless, silent moment of clarity before all the bullshit begins again. Peace.

lauantai 7. marraskuuta 2015

Learning a trick or two.

Recent times have been interesting in my life. Cut To Fit made a tour with ever so awesome Feastem and we had a blast throughout the whole extent of it. It was nearly three weeks, a whole month worth of workdays without a day off, so in a way I can honestly say I've never had that intense work schedule in my life. It was rewarding, humbling and really, really educating. I learned a million things during that trip and felt home even though I was nearly 3000 kilometers away at best.

I also have made some experiments with my consciousness and music that have had some profound results. Musically I have evolved. I now understand that there is no need to worry about music letting me down at any given time. If you book them, they will come, as they put it in Wayne's World. Give me an hour, a guitar and a loop pedal, and it will happen. What? Book me and you'll see. It gives me some sort of comfort, to be confident about what I can do, for the first time in my life I can rest assured of understanding what I am doing. That is a good thing.  I've done 30 albums or EP's of music on my own this year, worked on few other projects and reflected on my life. I am relatively happy, as happy as I can be in this world of loss and suffering and grief. I am surrounded by amazing musicians and people, I share my existence with a beautiful, kind, intelligent person and understand how all my achievements in life are connected to the consciousnesses of these other people around me. That is more than most people have, to be grateful for everything I have, to be free to pursue this goal of finding my Holy Mountain, moving towards it little by little.

 This is how far I have come on my quest.

There's also a Facebook page for this solo operation now.