I've been thinking a lot of atheism and religion lately, mainly becouse I've been watching Tim Minchin live on Youtube, I believe. Religion is quite a common subject in his rants, and I know he if someone will be able to make the change in people's minds and hearts, becouse he disguises all his points in laughter. It is the most clever way of raising the public eyebrow. Monty Python did it decades ago, South Park and Family Guy do it today, and they hopefully force people to think about where they stand in this Harmageddon of the Spiritual and the Profane.
I, for once, don't believe in existence of any supreme being that would have created anything such a random thing as our universe. Of course science has found some regularities, but recently it has even backed off in some of it's theories, when the quarks do not act as they should and the scientists find themselves thinking something like: "what the fuck?" It is just too huge and complex thing to fully figure out, but to me it's so fucking cool that we're even trying. Becouse if we wouldn't, we'd be pretty much spending our human lives wanking on the couch. So that we have something to do while we wait for our earthly bulk turn to dust.
So I don't believe that we we're created by God. We are here by a mere accident, the constant chain of evolution that developed consciousness, and according to now late Kurt Vonnegut, nature has realized what a huge mistake it has been, and has started to decrease our intelligence significantly. I believe to some extent this pessimist outlook on human intelligence is quite accurate. I know he probably was not all serious about it, but I can see the seed of frustration the writer had towards mankind, when at the peak of it's evolution it does all things possible to get rid of it's own collective responsibility to develop even further on. We are in decline. Subsiding by every single generation that follows. Hopefully we can reverse this, and get interested in the real things and our currently unique place in the universe.
Human life itself is a paradox. We are lab rats trapped in the cage that is earth, and we can see the room, the universe, right outside the boulders. But we can't get there. We can not get far enough to touch something real. Still we can find out, what's going on in this room we'll live our all life in. But we are never able to get out of here. And we take this knowledge nowhere. It goes nowhere. It will always stay right here. Life is a huge painting we all contribute in as a single shade of different colors. No one might catch us in their eye, but we are in the picture. We are born into this world, we die, and leave this world for others that come after us. That is the coil of mortality, our shared chain and the ball at the end of it, always in our mind, is death. The chains give us our freedom. When we experience the moments we forget all about dying, we are truly free. The good thing about scars is that there has to be skin to scar. You must exist to feel and think and eventually, die. And when you get to be alive without the constant fear of the awaiting end, you are free. When you do not fear, but understand the value of your life.
I don't believe in existence of soul, as in we'd all have a soul that would be something eternal, that would leave our body, and continue life without our body. Or if there is, it is not me, it is not my consciousness, and it is as good as not having a soul at all. I believe in souls, as in "this song has so much soul in it". It is the experience we have, and it is the experience we pour into what we do. And through this, objects can have even more soul than most of the people have soul. Someone made a guitar. The guitar was like any other guitar, it had six strings and wooden top, it resonates as someone plays it's strings. Then by several other hands, the guitar ended up in the hands of Robert Johnson. And instantly, through all the songs played, through all the emotions given, that guitar has a soul. It has more soul than all the wall street stockbrokers who'd even sell their mother for the profit.
Atheism is something that comes to me quite naturally, for I like to seek for some sort of higher understanding. Religion as a system that helps people to accept their mortality and arrange their social structure in a certain way has always seemed clear enough for me. They're always the same, they are a moral code to live by, an excuse for abuse and spiritual exploitation, they are amusement, and they have always been mixed with politics. I am still able to understand, that reality might be too hard to face for some people, and we all have the right to believe what we want. We all have to die, so we have to find our own lies, to make us feel better. I still have not found mine, and I believe I'll lose my mind towards the end. But that does not stop me from trying to become as succesful human being as I can be. And success does not mean any of that success most of you seek. My success would be helping people understand the complete, utter bullshit they're being fed every day, to see through the lies, to trust in their own comprehension, to respect their elders and other people as well, and to learn from them. To reclaim the power of common sense over the nasal, annoying voice of bureaucracy.