I was reading Plato's State, and I got all the way to the page nineteen before the great inspiration struck me, and I was unable to concentrate. Sokrates was arguing about Justice, and what it means. What sort of virtue or attribute is justice? He and his opponent came up to conclusion of justice being something that is needed especially, when the actual THING is not needed. When you don't play your instrument, it's best kept safe in the hands of righteous man. Not in the hands of some drug addict who'd sell it for the price of his next fix. Speaking of which I had a somewhat strange experience yesterday.
I was speaking to some (somewhere around 50 people) youth/social workers in our town about my lifestyle, life without drugs or alcohol. It was strange becouse it was part of this drug education day, and I had to speak to my own co-workers, after the recovering drug addict had told his life story, which was far more exciting than mine. He had six years more life behind him than I, so what am I to preach about anything, to people who were mostly older than me? No one. Partially, this made it easier, and also harder. I mentioned the possibility that I may find the joy of drinking even tomorrow, and I don't know this today, so I speak only for myself, only for the life I have lived this far. I spoke about my youth, how I was not considered "different" in a little redneck town, but when I moved to this "big city", everyone considered it weird not to drink booze.
Nowadays everyone knows it, and I think they also know that does not make me look down on others, or judge their drinking. I'm ok with everyone else being drunk around me, I don't mind. If I wanted to drink, I would. I don't need to explain it to anyone, although here in Finland it is so normal to loosen your brain cells with booze, that you'll always have to explain if you don't. I just think that when we are possibly the only existing species capable of thinking (as far as we know) We really should not waste that opportunity. I know this is also the leading reason TO drink at all. The burden is too heavy to carry, and we don't want to think. We escape it, unconsciously. It's our way of handling the responsibility of surviving: we don't want to.
It's also funny, how we here in Finland consider ourselves great drinkers, but we drink mainly some light shit. We we're playing at Czech Republic last summer, and our drummer and my brother went drinking with the belgians, and they we're down after a handful of beers. Everyone in every country drinks, we are just the only ones making a number out of it. But anyway, there I was, explaining my "illness" of not drinking. I made sure to include this has nothing to do with straight edge or anything like that, I eat junk food and have sex, I have nothing against drugs, I just don't recommend them to anyone. If you have to do drugs, PLEASE make something out of it. Write a book. Paint paintings, write music, do a sculpture, anything. Don't just abuse them and let them go to waste. And after the inevitable rehab, observe these works of diluted mind. Observe yourself and learn. I also compared reading books with doing drugs: It's fun when you start, gets more annoying and frustrating every day, and you just wish you're finished before you are completely fucked up.
Back to the justice. In my opinion, it is something we possess, something that guides us to make decisions in the light of our current situation. We don't really know if our decisions are right or wrong, but we tend to do the "right thing". Later it may turn out that it had more negative effects than it had positive effects, but that does not make it a "bad" decision. We tried the best we could. I think most of those bad decisions are made becouse we are uninformed, or ignorant of other's choices. And our choices cross and ruin their's, and result in some damage on ourselves or our relatives/friends/etc. This view has been refined when I've seen the good and evil crash ( when I was a kid, I was told that Americans we're good, and Russians we're bad, but we have seen this image crash and burn as the good guys have made more bad things than the bad ones ever did) and make way to this way more chaotic way of being. Everyone is individual now, everyone else is bunch of enemies, homo homini lupus est, and so on. World has slipped into anarchy, but in the wrong sort of anarchy. In this anarchy we are afraid of eachother, instead of building the world on trust, and then minding our own things, as we should if you ask me.